Feeling Displaced

For probably the first time since moving and definitely for the first time since starting my job, I have begun to feel a bit displaced. In the wake of the much anticipated visit by my family and Mrs. Nice Gal, I am finding myself a little out of place and lacking the "settled roots" that I had on the East Coast. I don't want to call it homesickness by any means because I do prefer being out here than living/working in NYC, but I feel like I have yet to establish the new "persona" that I would like to have out here.

I know that this is most hampered by the distance separating me and Mrs. Nice Gal. I'm holding out on a lot of different opportunities till she get out here, but as the months continue to pass, I feel even more removed from the family structure that I had back East.

Also adding to this is my not fully sure work situation. As you may know, my project with The Company came to a close a few weeks ago. I took a couple of days off to spend time with the family and for the past few days have been on some busy work stretching a three-day project to four days. Now it's a waiting game until my next project kicks off. I am feeling pretty secure in my position within The Company, but until I am officially signed to a new project, I find myself slightly on edge. Until that day, I will keep coming into work each day hoping to make myself as busy and necessary as possible and I look forward to some new updates to report.

So hopefully soon, I'll be reunited permanently and able to finally plant some roots out west; making new friends, experiencing new adventures, and feeling fully in the moment. Till then, I'll keep the smile and move forward with each beautiful day, if feeling slightly displaced from the immediate moment.

-SMA-