May 1st

Today is May 1st and a day that I have been dreading for the past week or so. When I moved out west I knew that I was taking a risk, but I tried as hard as I could to make sure that it was a calculated risk knowing that I had networking contacts, resources in a multitude of areas and a few job leads already established. My ideal goal was to have something locked in by April 1st, but my more reasonable/attainable goal (or so I thought) would be to have something set by May 1st. Well as you can tell from my tone, May 1st is here and as it is 6:00 PM will most likely come to pass with no positive resolution.

This has had me very down all week, and while I started Monday with a great positive attitude, that has quickly gone down hill as the days have passed. A few call backs that I have been waiting on have failed to materialize and a couple of leads that I was hoping for have turned into potential call backs for a future month. Next week will mark three months that I have been out of work, and while I shouldn't be complaining that I get to lounge around, go to the gym when I want, take in an afternoon coffee, etc, there is a point from an emotional (and a financial) standpoint that one feels the needs to become a productive member of society once again. I am at the point where, while not giving up on my dream, I do need to seriously reassess the current situation and possibly target new strategies or opportunities.

While this landmark date in my quest and search does leave me with great anxiety, I would be amiss if I didn't comment on the good things that did happen today. This morning I did have an interview, albeit informational, with a great company and I feel I made a good connection for potential collaboration later on. (Ie. They don't have any jobs now, but if things open up...... Sounds familiar!!!) Then this afternoon, I reconnected with a friend from High School who I haven't seen in almost 10 years and had a really wonderful lunch and conversation in the Embarcadero. (Thanks Jen!) Then this afternoon, I had a great workout in the gym and now get to watch my favorite show (LOST!) this evening. So in the spirit of Optimism Prime, I am trying hard to focus of the positives, but this week has definitely been difficult.

As for what's coming up, tomorrow is a work day so there is still the possibility that I might hear some back from some potential companies. I'm also excited to check out the Iron Man movie (an amazing 95% positive review percentage on the Tomatometer) and then next week I fly back home (again) to see Mel and go off to my sister's graduation, and a friend's wedding. I will of course keep you updated as things move forward, but cross your lucky sticks for me, and I hope that the next time I blog I may have more positive news for you. Till then.....I will blog with you later.

-A slightly dejected Nice Guy-